"Remember" by Disturbed

As I look back on this past years of my life and consider all I've done with my life, I've begun to consider all those whose lives have been tied to mine for even a moment. Those I've bumped into and apologized to, those who have served me at restaurants, those I've met through friends, those who became friends, and those that I couldn't live without it.

I've wondered what my life would be like without them, and what they're lives would be like without me. I think about those I left on bad terms, those whose lives I've heard of going down hill after my departure from them. I wonder if I could have done anything. If I had stayed connected with them, would their lives have varied. Would mine?

I've been thinking about my friend James alot since I saw him last week. I remember meeting him, and the slow sometimes painful progression of our friendship. I remember the times he looked after me, and I him.

Then I consider where he is now. He is going down a rough path. He decided not to go to college. He's engaged to a girl that he used to hate. A girl who is dedicated to removing all of his friends from his life. Most of us haven't recieved an invite to his wedding and probably won't. Only one of us was invited, as the best man, but he has something else he is dedicated to. Plus he doesn't support the marriage. Most of us are willing to accept him being with this girl, like her or not, but what we don't support is him getting married so young with no prospect of ever having a college education.

The worst thing is she is using us not liking her as a reason for him to avoid us. Everytime we want to hang out, she has to be there. He is definitely in the top 10 of the most influential people in my life, which makes it so hard to watch him just give up and settle like this. He has always been smarter than any of us, in school and most other stuff, but he never saw reason to try, and now he never will.

"Remember" by Disturbed...nuff said.

-matt