Wow I'm not sure what to post but I feel I should post something.
I sometimes just sit around and don't want to anything I've begun to feel really worthless lately. I always get this way in the few weeks after Valentine's Day. I just have yet to be able to overcome my fear of asking a girl out here. As I've said before there was a time when I was at least competent at it.
I just hide behind one excuse after another. First it was that they'd want nothing to do with a guy that looks like me. Which is proven a false theory time and time again in this place. Then I blame it on a lack of money and a car, but there is plenty to do around hear that is within walking distance and/or cheap so I can't confidently make that argument. I think part of it is that I'm not always very trusting of my choices in girls I've been burned a few times.
And because of that inability I judge myself really harshly, which is unfair to myself. I just don't know.
"Riverboat" by The Nobility, because "OH! you know how to bring a man down."
-matt
well I think that's all for today.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Monday, February 18, 2008
"Santeria" by Sublime
Don't you ever wish you could figure out what the future held?
I know I do. Alot of times, I feel like if I just knew what came next I'd have a better chance of making decisions now.
Or maybe mind reading. I just wish I could figure out this girl in my Geology class. I really enjoy talking to her and joking with her in class and we continuously try to hang out outside of class mostly to study but there have been a few other occassions, but no matter what it never seems to pan out.
Complicating matters further she has a boyfriend. Though she never mentions him, or makes mention of even having one. I just don't know what to do.
I don't see her tomorrow because I have a youth internship interview tomorrow with a church in Brownsville, TX which is about 4 miles from the border. Lets see how it goes.
The theme song for the day is "Santeria" by Sublime, because "I don't practice Santeria, I ain't got no crystal ball."
-matt
I know I do. Alot of times, I feel like if I just knew what came next I'd have a better chance of making decisions now.
Or maybe mind reading. I just wish I could figure out this girl in my Geology class. I really enjoy talking to her and joking with her in class and we continuously try to hang out outside of class mostly to study but there have been a few other occassions, but no matter what it never seems to pan out.
Complicating matters further she has a boyfriend. Though she never mentions him, or makes mention of even having one. I just don't know what to do.
I don't see her tomorrow because I have a youth internship interview tomorrow with a church in Brownsville, TX which is about 4 miles from the border. Lets see how it goes.
The theme song for the day is "Santeria" by Sublime, because "I don't practice Santeria, I ain't got no crystal ball."
-matt
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